It’s a bittersweet moment in time.
I’m in a salted caramel state of mind.
Chocolate drizzle running down my face.
Feeling helpless about stating my case.
Words fall melted from my mouth.
Pools of verbiage flowing out.
Sticky, chewy…pulling at my teeth
Shattered sentences lay at my feet.
You wonder why you can’t fly, as you watch the other birds in the sky.
And you look at your wings as they lay by your side…motionless.
You wonder why the song they sing, from your soul doesn’t ring.
You open your mouth to take a breath and find you are…voiceless.
The door to your cage remains open and you…remain in your cage.
My husband and I spent time at the beach the other day. He walked out towards the shoreline and looked out over the water. I watched him for awhile, then he turned and beckoned me to come stand with him. As I stood by his side, he told me to close my eyes and just feel the power of the ocean. We are such a small part of this world. We should take in every single opportunity we have, to reflect and appreciate the beauty and magic that is life. #YOLO
Live life for the moments, take it all in.
For one day, yes one day, life will surely end.
But the beauty of the NOW,
the memories that we make, will linger long after,
we’ve drifted from this place.
Live life for the moments…the magic is in the NOW.
I sometimes wonder, perhaps as we all do, where life would have taken me had I made different choices. Then, quickly following that thought is all the things I would have missed out on in life had I not made those exact choices. My conclusion, I am exactly where I am supposed to be and that is okay…for now.
On April 16, 1986, fifteen days after my 17th birthday and my first year as a teenage mother I wrote this poem:
The Tower of Goal
In my mind there is a tower
Reaching high above all else.
And next to it is a ladder
that which I must climb myself.
Upon the rungs of this ladder
are obstacles to make me ail.
But I’ll keep climbing,
I’ll reach the top.
No, I must not fail.
For in my mind, upon the tower
there is a person I see
and when I reach the top,
I’ll find that person is me!
I am still climbing that ladder. I still see myself standing at the top of it. I just keep going. Undaunted. Committed to succeed.